Welcome. I'm Phillia.

I went from hot mess to truly blessed—and I'm here to help you do the same.

The Journey

My name means "Friendship Love" in Ancient Greek, and throughout my life, I've naturally embodied it. People tend to feel it immediately—strangers open up, share their deepest stories, and feel safe in my presence. I've always tapped into the energy of unconditional love and light-filled optimism.

But life happens. Pain and suffering are inevitable in this Earth School, especially in recent years. The light that came so naturally to me dimmed—sometimes to barely a flicker. The journey back wasn't quick or easy. What it took was drawing upon decades of hard-won inner work—the knowledge, wisdom, and tools I had gathered along the way—to rekindle that light—integrating soul lessons into embodied wisdom and becoming fully grounded, clear, centered, and aligned with God/Source/Universe/Great Spirit/Great Mystery/Divine Mother/Divine Father—whatever name resonates with you—the Source of all Creation and Light.

I was blessed to work with incredible healers, teachers, and guides along the way—each one offering their unique medicine and wisdom to support my transformation whom I stay eternally grateful for.

However, I didn't start there. I started in panic attacks and prescription pills, people-pleasing my way through life, saying yes when I meant no, seeking approval from everyone except myself. I was living disconnected from my soul, my truth, my power.

The journey was about shedding the roles, the masks, the performing, the conditioning, the programming, the indoctrinations—releasing the maladaptive coping mechanisms, the ego-centric survival modes, and the reactivities that were sabotaging my life and my relationships. I was able to let go through exploring a multitude of healing modalities, studying ancient spiritual wisdom, and deepening my connection to Source through prayer—all with so much self-compassion, empathy, acceptance, forgiveness, understanding, humility, care, grace and love for myself.

It was about alchemizing my traumas into my purpose, my power, my embodied wisdom that lives in my bones. It was about dropping down from my overthinking monkey mind into heart-centered soul knowing—reconnecting to my true authentic self, my intuition, my inner compass.

My healing journey was about remembering who I really am beneath all of that: a divine spark in motion, a child of the Creator—which makes you and me and everyone else worthy of all the unconditional love, acceptance, and belonging we've ever longed for.

I was raised in organized religion and the church since the day I was born, but was turned off by the guilt, the shame, the judgment, the hypocrisy, those who talk the talk but definitely don't walk the walk. So I left to find God on my own terms. But I took the true medicine of Christ with me that I gained through my upbringing in Christianity—faith, compassion, empathy, unconditional love, kindness and service. I set off to discover the Divine as the interconnected web of all consciousness and energy, as THE Ultimate Creator / My Co-Creator, and as the source within me and all of creation.

My first spiritual awakening happened in the rave scene in the 1990s—dancing until dawn, feeling the heartbeat of Pachamama/Mother Earth pulsing through the speakers and through my body. The movement, the rhythm, the community. Ecstasy, ketamine, LSD opening doors of perception I didn't know existed. It was somatic healing on the dancefloor before I even knew those words. It was PLUR—Peace, Love, Unity, Respect—and it felt more like church than church ever did.

The deeper awakenings came through synchronicities I couldn't ignore. Spirit animals appearing in my dreams and waking life. Past lives revealed through shamanic journeys that explained my deepest wounds and relationships. Energy I could feel but couldn't see. A mystical, magical, interconnected world my scientist mind learned to observe, analyze, and trust.

In 2007, I became an apprentice to a shaman. In 2010, I was initiated into the Q'ero lineage of the Andean medicine people in Peru as a Paqo—a medicine woman dedicated to the path of Light. I've been doing this sacred work for almost 20 years now.

Shamanism—both healing myself and serving as a paqo for others—has completely changed my world for the better. More true. More free. More powerful. More aligned with who I really am.

The Dark Night

But let me be real: the path wasn't linear. I had my dark night of the soul—actually, multiple dark nights.

I experienced financial devastation and loss. Depression, anxiety, CPTSD and what felt like bi-polar manic energy I couldn't control. Scarcity and shame. Pride and desperation. Heartbreak, abandonment and betrayals that cracked me open. Chasing approval and achievement to feel worthy of love. I drowned in self-reflection—confronting my own inferior qualities, my shadows, my unresolved fears, wounds, emotions and sabotaging patterns reflected back to me in relationship mirrors. I encountered supernatural spiritual warfare most people don't know exists—entities, demons, attachments, the shadow side of consciousness that's very real when you work in these realms.

I could have stayed down there.

But I chose to alchemize it all.

The Medicine

I healed myself through the same medicine I now offer you:

Ancient spiritual wisdom. Shamanic soul retrievals. Energetic cord cuttings. Past life quantum healings. Sacred plant medicines (ayahuasca/yagé, iboga, psilocybin, wachuma/san pedro). Somatic integration. Shadow work. Reiki. Sound healing. Sacred sexuality and healing sexual trauma. Meditation, prayer, and therapy. Holistic nourishment and nurturing. Inner child healing and re-parenting myself into healthier ways. Forgiveness, humility, and grace. Non-judgmental radical acceptance. Creative expression. Self-love as a daily practice, not a destination.

I studied Shamanism, Kabbalah, Taoism, Astrology, Human Design, Numerology, the Chakras, Kundalini, Tantra, Energy, Consciousness, the Spiritual Cosmic Laws that govern this existence and more—everything that could help me understand the patterns, the karma, the soul's journey. I worked with my own attachment wounds, childhood traumas, ancestral pain, and past life imprints.

I healed my relationships—including the one with myself. I've experienced traditional monogamy, polyamory, and finding my way back to sacred divine union. I went from overachieving people-pleaser perfectionist to sovereign soul. From needing external validation to only needing approval from God, my #1 partner and co-pilot in my life. From no boundaries to sacred boundaries. From scarcity to prosperity. From fear to love.

I came full circle: leaving Christianity, traveling through ancient wisdom traditions, and landing back at Christ consciousness—the REAL medicine of unconditional love, compassion, creation and service.

What I Know Now

After 25+ years of dedicated healing work and almost 20 years serving others, here's what I know:

Every pain you carry is medicine for your soul's evolution. Every heartbreak, every disappointment, every trauma—it's all here to help you remember who you really are beneath the conditioning, the masks, the roles.

Life is about transformation, not perfection. We're here to alchemize wounds into wisdom, shadows into light, pain into power. We're here to become the fullest, most authentic expression of our soul. Our number one purpose why we come back to this Earthly existence is to GROW.

Self-knowledge is power. To know yourself is the beginning of it all. Tools like Astrology, Human Design, Gene Keys, Numerology, Myers-Briggs and more offer profound insight into your soul's blueprint. The shadow qualities in your astrological chart? That's your spiritual baggage—the unresolved karma, wounds, fears, and emotions you brought into this life to correct, overcome, and integrate into the light of higher consciousness and awareness.

Relationships are mirrors. Every person in your life is playing a role in YOUR movie to help you heal, grow, and evolve. They're showing you what's unresolved within you—from this life, past lives, and your ancestral line.

Prayer is a technology to connect with the Creator. The secret to the path of miracles is always focusing on yourself and how you can continue to evolve for the higher and brighter. Find the lessons. Find the gems of light in the darkest of nights—that's where the portal for the greatest blessings can be found.

Stop forcing. Start trusting. The ego that feels anxious, despair and fear wants to fix, overcome, bully, and force solutions. But that's not how real healing works. Stillness and trust in what God/Source is showing you—even the painful parts—is the medicine. Pain has intelligence. It's here to wake you up, shock you into awareness. At rock bottom, the dawn breaks. The I Ching and Kabbalah teach: in surrender, there is power. In acceptance, transformation. In trust, miracles abound.

Spiritual laws are as real as physical laws. Everything is energy and consciousness. We are interconnected with everything and everyone—every thought, every action, every word affects the collective consciousness more than we could ever know. We reincarnate to evolve, each lifetime perfectly designed for our soul's growth. Your relationships are energetically aligned to awaken exactly what you need to heal. The pain you experience has spiritual purpose—medicine pushing you toward your highest evolution. And yes, energies, entities, and attachments are real—they can drain your life force and create chaos. Shamanic healing addresses all of this: clearing intrusions, restoring sovereignty, and helping you understand the spiritual architecture of your life.

Happiness is an inside job. When we give too much power to external sources—people, achievements, validation—that happiness is temporary and fleeting. True, lasting joy comes from within: from your connection to Source, from remembering who you are, and from gratitude. Gratitude is the attitude that opens the floodgates to miracles and abundance.

You are not broken. You are fragmented, maybe. Disconnected from parts of yourself that got lost along the way. But soul retrieval is real. You can call those parts back home. You can integrate. You can become whole.

Healing is not comfortable, but it's worth it. The path goes THROUGH the darkness, not around it. But on the other side? Freedom. Wholeness. Joy. Power. Peace. You—finally, fully, beautifully YOU.

I'm living proof. I've been to the depths and come back radiant. I've transformed manic energy into creative power, scarcity into abundance, people-pleasing into sacred service, fear into love.

From hot mess to truly blessed.

What I Do: Holding Space for YOUR Transformation

For almost 20 years, I've been doing shamanic healing work with clients in NYC and globally. My core medicine is soul retrieval—bringing back the fragmented parts of you that got lost due to trauma, heartbreak, ancestral wounds, past lives, and conditioning.

I also offer:

• Energetic cord cutting (releasing unhealthy attachments to people, places, patterns)

• Past life readings and healing

• Power animal and spirit guide connections

• Shamanic limpias (deep energetic cleansings)

• Aura and chakra clearing

• Reiki and sound healing

• Sacred plant medicine and psychedelics consulting and integration

• Guidance for healing sexual trauma, breaking taboos around intimacy, pleasure, and sacred sexuality

• Somatic and integrative coaching for trauma, PTSD, anxiety, depression, and soul fragmentation

I work with people healing from:

• Childhood trauma and CPTSD

• Relationship wounds and heartbreak

• Sexual trauma and shame

• Anxiety, depression, panic attacks

• Addiction and recovery

• Chronic illness and fatigue

• Feeling lost, stuck, or disconnected from purpose

• Soul fragmentation from abuse, betrayal, or loss

I demystify the "woo woo." I break taboos around sex, shadow, and spirit. I speak from both my scientist mind and my mystical heart. I hold sacred space with compassion, empathy, and unconditional love—because I've walked through the fire myself.

You Are Not Broken. You Are Becoming.

If you're reading this, you're probably on your own healing journey. Maybe you're deep in transformation. Maybe you're just waking up. Maybe you're in the dark night and can't see the way out.

I see you. I've been you.

And I'm here to tell you: there is a way through. Not around. THROUGH.

The pain you carry can be transformed back into your personal power, freedom, and light. The wounds can become wisdom. The shadows can become your greatest source of strength.

You are not here to stay small, to please others, to dim your light. You are here to remember who you REALLY are: a sovereign soul here to create a life that resonates with your authentic spirit and inner truth.

I hold sacred space for you to feel safe, to be seen, to be heard, to be acknowledged, to be loved. My mission is to empower you to reclaim the power and light you may have lost along your journey. To awaken your consciousness and the innate wisdom of truth and love that resides in your heart.

I'm here as a spark of light and a source of encouragement for you—whether you're just beginning this path or you're deep in the transformation.

Let's alchemize your fears, your pain, your shadows into clarity, freedom, and authentic power.

Because that's your birthright.

Ready to Begin?

Book a shamanic healing session with me. Whether you're in NYC or anywhere in the world, we can work together remotely. My sessions have helped hundreds of people heal from PTSD, anxiety, depression, sexual trauma, relationship wounds, chronic illness, addiction, and soul fragmentation.

Read the testimonials. Feel into the energy. And if your soul says YES—reach out.

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I am sovereign. Clear. Joyful. Connected. At peace.

And beneath all your conditioning—so are you.

xoxo—Phillia :)

Medicine Woman | Q'ero Paqo | Shaman | Healer | Guide